I'm quite nervous, though. At this point, I don't even understand what the different IT degrees mean, much less whether or not I like them enough to pursue them. I'm worried that the classes will be too difficult and over my head, and I'll fail this like I've failed everything else. This time, though, I'm going to study my ass off. I'm not going to let myself get distracted, I'm going to study for my tests and I'm going to strive for a 4.0 GPA. I owe it to myself to get my life started on the right foot, instead of standing still, letting it pass me by. I'm going to look up everything I can about IT so I can familiarize myself with it, instead of just jumping into it without knowing what I'm getting myself into. I'm even thinking about getting a For Dummies book on it so I can get a better grasp on the basics. I'm not a cylon, but I definitely have a plan.
On that note, I am also not going to be on the computer as much. I'm not going to waste my time on facebook anymore. I'm going to read more, and I'm going to improve on my intelligence. I have floated through life so far, but it's sink or swim time, and I'm not going to join my mom at the bottom of the pool. I am going to make the jump, and I'm going to have something to be proud of. I'll be honest, I considered having kids just so I could feel worthwhile. So I'd have a title. But my title is not now, nor will it ever be "Mother." Mark my words, it will be "IT specialist," or "programmer," but it will not be something that will control my life like having a child would. I am very lucky to have such a wonderful, encouraging boyfriend to help guide me to the right decisions, instead of all the negativity and stress brought on by my family. That's just a little side note.
It's good to aim for a better salary, but you need to make sure you are also aiming for a career you are fairly certain you will enjoy. Like you said, you don't even know what any of the degrees mean aside from "computer stuff." Intense research. Make SURE this is something you actually want to go to school for and do for a living. The great pay won't make up for a career you don't like after all, if you even make it through the classes before deciding you don't like it. I am certain you will do just fine in school, whichever degree you choose. You just need ensure you choose one you will be happy with. I know you know all of this, but sometimes you still need to be told by someone else anyway.
ReplyDeleteAs for the "Mother" bit, you would be a great mom if the occasion arose, but I am glad you didn't decide to do it since it isn't really something you want. Kids only hold you back if you let them (after all, I'm in school and I have 2 at a sort of difficult age). However, you have made it more than clear that you do not really want to be a mom; you're just not particularly interested in it, and it is a huge responsibility which requires interest. I think you'd step up and do good if you had to, but it's just not something you'd choose.
I let myself be distracted by dumb sh*t for a while. You know, you were there. I realize I simply hadn't managed to actually decide what I wanted to do with my life; I wasn't really interested in school at the time. Then I made a few bad choices, had my first kiddo, and decided to just work to support him instead of waste money at school at the time. I've been incredibly lucky since, and I have pretty much decided my direction. I have job choices A and B which I can do with my degree I'm getting; I'll test A and hopefully stick with it, but if it doesn't work out that way, I'll go for B and help hubs with the income in a job I am hopefully more than just content with (but content will do).